Beauty In The Breakdown

Saturday, 6 February 2010, 8:28 PM

I'm the author of my life. Unfortunately, I'm writing in pen, so I can't erase my mistakes.

We don't have time left to regret, hold on
And we'll take more than common sense, hold on
So stop your wondering, take a stand, hold on
'Cause there's more to life than just to live, hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

One single smile, a helping hand, hold on
It's not that hard to be a friend, hold on
So don't give up, stand 'til the end, hold on
'Cause there's more to life than just to live, hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When you love someone and they break your heart
Don't give up on love, have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When it falls apart and you're feeling lost
All your hope is gone, don't forget to hold on
Hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When you love someone and they break your heart
Don't give up on love, have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When you love someone and they break your heart
Don't give up on love, have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

The red words, happened to me. I can't undo it. And I don't know how to.

Monday, 1 February 2010, 5:28 PM

"The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know, when sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and go “No, I’m happy for you”? That’s when it’s really sad."

John Mayer

"There is nothing better than a friend, unless it is a friend with chocolate."

Charles Dickens

"As soon as you stop wanting something, you get it."

Andy Warhol

"Gay is not a synonym for shitty or bad. If you want to say something’s shitty; then just say it’s shitty or bad and stop being such a homophobic asshole."

Pete Wentz

"Well, sometimes love seems easy. Like it’s easy to love rain and hawks.
And it’s easy to love wild plums and the moon. But with people, seems
like love’s a hard thing to know. It gets all mixed up. I mean, you can
love one person in one way and another person in another way.
But how do you know you love the right one in every way?"

Where the Heart Is

Saturday, 23 January 2010, 11:53 PM

Love hurts, it has always been. Until you found your special someone.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

Neil Gaiman

Sunday, 3 January 2010, 8:54 PM

It's 2010. Merry New Year.

I cried realizing that it's already the third day of a new year. Motherfucker. And I've decided to change my 8th subject from POA to E Lit. I was never Commerce's best friend anyway and we never get along. Ever.

I'll also deactivate my Facebook account and delete my Twitter account. Maybe. If I could find some other things to do in my free time. Then I'll delete it.

I watched Full House today. The first Korean drama I watched. To my surprise, it still makes me laugh. Imma start watching more Korean dramas. I always feel better after watching one. Why? Because I get really emotional and cry. I've never realized how much I've been holding back.

Oh and before I forget,

Many thanks to all the amazing & wonderful people I made friends with and meet as well,
I thank Allah for the funny people I met during tuition, my interesting ugama classmates I don't speak and hang often. And not forgetting, the Year 8P 2009.

Wish all of you wonderful people a great year. With lotsa loves from yours truly.

Saturday, 26 December 2009, 2:17 PM

Mmm, those yummy bods of theirs.

I have seen the light. Okay, not the light. But I do know for sure that my view of Korean male is changed back. Before I was interested in American/English/Australian teen boys.

How could I not notice how fit their bodies are?

I've seen a lot of American romantic scenes before, but the Korean romantic scenes definitely tops it all.

I've never cried so hard in front of the TV watching dramas, except for Korean dramas.

I've never realize that some Koreans have such fluent English.

I've never been this excited waiting for the show the next day. Well, except for My Wife And Kids.

And I certainly have never realize how great their songs are. Oh wait, I realize that in 2005. But I stopped listening to them in 2006.

I'm not a Korean freak or whatever. But I'm definitely liking them right now.

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